Sunday, December 28, 2008

Christmas review

Christmas on the inside.....

and on the outside.

Here are the knitted gifts.
Mom loved the market bag, my
nephew is adorable in the

gator scarf

and the little bracelet bags were a big hit.

This is my Christmas appearance here at the skein.

I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas
and wish ya'll a safe and Happy New Year.

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Tuesday night knitting - gift exchange

The pictures speak for themselves!

Tuesday, December 16, 2008


I had this big rant on why things happen, but my own issues with God and religion would color anything I had to say. I would not want to lose any of my wonderful friends.
So I will keep the rant to myself.
I no longer have any answer to give him when he asks why is this happening to him. I don't know is just not good enough anymore (never really was) , it offers no help or comfort.
I am back to feeling very helpless in all of this. I am supposed to care for them, keep them safe and warm, ease their fears and help them learn how to survive in this big harsh world. I can't even help him survive elementary school.
Things have take several steps back, back to where he is begging not to be taken to school, holding on to walls, door knobs and car handles. Mondays are hard, always have been.
It is just too much to go back after being home for two days.
The school nurse is a real bitch. She should have retired a long time ago. Most kids do not notice sarcasm or recognize snide comments, but mine does. I have talked to her and the principle about being kind and understanding. The need to not make things worse. I know this is a very frustrating situation for all involved and can be disruptive to the routine in the office, but come on. Have some compassion, they are not adults but children with fragile feelings and little self confidence.
I will be glad when Christmas break starts, the horrible mornings will end for awhile.
I do know a whole new set of issues will begin. I can never decide what is worse. Too much togetherness is rough for everyone. He commented the other day that he bets I wish he was not my son. I cannot emphasize enough how much that is untrue. I wish a lot of things, I wish my cousin had not been killed when he was 17 and I was 15, I wish I still had my grandparents, I wish we had more money but I do not wish away any of my children.

Monday, December 8, 2008

Tuesday/Friday night knitting

Nicole looks so proud of her fun fur/novelty yarn scarf. She plans to wear it with the beautiful lace wrap sweater she finished Thanksgiving week.

These will be some teacher gifts. I used this Free pattern. Made 6 so far, Eli has already taken one to school.

Lora this picture of your beautiful mom is for you. Loretta is working on a ballband dishcloth.

Look at those socks, yes the feet are on the table. One foot belongs to Ashley and the other one to Holly.

We were just too wild for Jayce. He could not take anymore of our conversations. There was a very in depth discussion on weather to shave or not to shave legs in the winter. The consensus was to not. It was even said that the longer the leg hair is the better job is does keeping the leg warm.
It was only about 11:30 pm when we left Grinny Possum
P.S. I cannot tell a lie. Nicole is not going to wear that scarf. She is knitting it for an aunt. I think it is one of those aunts that no one talks about.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

I can relate

We just finished watching this Hallmark movie. I have never had to deal with Tourettes Syndrome but I could see lots of similarities to what we are dealing with at home. No young boy wants to bring attention to themselves by making strange noises or crying all the time. So the "he could stop if he wants to/only trying to get attention" is totally absurd. If people would just take a moment to think, they would realize how ridiculous they sound. I have seen the anger he felt in the scene sitting in the car after being treated very badly. It is overwhelming when you want to stop and the wanting just makes it all worse. You need the support of your family but you don't want them to see you like that. Don't want them to see you out of control. Angry one minute saying "you do things just to hurt me, don't care at all how I feel" . How horrible, mean and heartless you are. Lashes out at those around that love you. The next minute is filled with sobbing "I didn't mean it, I'm sorry, I don't know why I say things like that. Every morning before school is so hard. So hard for him to face. Hard for me to hear the despair in his voice and see how panicked he becomes. It goes against all motherly instinct to do what I have to do every morning. I have to send an angry, sobbing, terrified child to school everyday. Instead of keeping him home where he feels safe and relaxed. Where he can see me and know that everything is fine.
It was really hard for him to go back after Thanksgiving break. This past week was really awful for everyone. I am so very worried about how it will be when he is off school during Christmas break.

Alex is modeling a hat I knit for a homeless shelter for teens in California. My goal is to knit one or two hats a month and have a big box to send next fall.

I love seeing him look so happy.

Friday, November 28, 2008

yarn, kids, family and friends

Today was the big sale at Grinny Possum Fiber Arts Look at all of that wonderful yarn! It was almost a crime at 40% off. There were 25 die hard yarnies in the store at 6:25 am. One of the ladies had just given birth to a baby girl on Wednesday. In a few hours there will be the night owl version of the big sale. So if you were wondering where I will be from 11:45pm until 2:00 am....I bet you can figure it out.

Look at those adorable boys. Rosie is the lab mix, I think she wants to get away.
Lydia is becoming such a big girl. Standing alone cruising along the furniture. She will be a year old in a couple months.
The pretty girl with my crew is my cousin Devon. Before she grew up to be a beautiful young woman, she was the favored babysitter.

Isn't Ashley cute wrapped in Interlacements sock yarn. I think she may have bought all the great colors. Ashley is the new favored babysitter. They love going to her house, she has four cats and Jayce.
A finished object. One of the several dishcloths I have finished lately. It is the Yarn Harlot's One Row Scarf pattern. I love it.

It's Big D with Eli and Olivia.

A table full of wonderful friends. There were one or two missing.
Nicole knit the most beautiful sweater. She planned to wear it on Thanksgiving.

I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday weekend. I can't believe Christmas is so close.

Thursday, November 27, 2008

Happy Thanksgiving!

I hope all of you have a wonderful day, whether it is spent with family or friends. We will be spending time with my sister, nephew and her significant other. Then later in the day we will eat again with the in-law side. That means we will get to see Daniel and Lydia.
I am reaching to find what to be thankful for today. It is hard to see past the turmoil of the past 6 weeks and honestly I don't see the light at the end of this particular tunnel.

Eli is thankful that we have food and water and a house with heat and his sister. Oh and for the tv too.

Alex is thankful for me, his daddy and the dogs. And that he has guitar hero.

Olivia is thankful for the doggies and her family.

I do find more and more reasons to be thankful that I found knitting. Knitting has brought me some of the most wonderful friends. Friends that I am comfortable giving my kids to for a few hours. Friends that don't mind that I am not my happy, sunny, playful self. That listen when needed and don't try to fix what is impossible to fix. Some are far away, but I can still feel their love and support. Some are here and I am very happy to have them. Even tho they made me drink alone the other night.

I am thankful that the five of us are together.

Saturday, November 22, 2008

I'm here, really I am.

It has been some time since I felt like saying anything. I have to take things day by day. But things are a little better now. I have things worked out so that Alex's school day starts 2 hours later. That way he can sleep later and it won't be so hard to get up.

I have been knitting, for awhile I could only knit dishcloths. It seems I was not able to commit to anything bigger than that. I moved on from dishcloths but I stayed with cotton.
Some of these are going to be presents. I made one for my aunt, she will be in town for Christmas. I don't have a picture of it yet. Right now it is working as a shop sample. Later it will fulfill its' destiny.... washing dishes.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Tuesday night knitting

Look at how cute this is. The wonderful Criquette sent me a Pay it Forward package. It was a little overdue but it came at the perfect time for me. I love that button. It is so me. The package also had a fridge magnet, very cool tin with mints and she sent the rest of the skein. I love this yarn. If you can't tell it is the Calorimetry
I would love it if one of you would tell me exactly how to pronounce that word.

I have been on a dishcloth kick. In the past 3 weeks or so I have made 6 cloths. Here are just a couple. These are probably going to be Christmas presents.
The bottom picture shows my Calorimetry with Tata's colossal Calorimetry. Hers is very big, I suggested it would make an interesting tube type top. I think it looks a little like lips.

On a personal note, things have been very rough the past week or so. I have not had much good to say, so I tend to get very quite. No one wants to hear my woes all the time. I start to feel like all I have to talk about is negative things, so I choose to say nothing. We take things day by day. Today was a good day. He was able to stay at school the entire day. It is going to be a long road to get meds right so he feels good on a regular basis.

I have more knitting to show you but that will wait for another day.

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Tea with the birthday girl

This past weekend Olivia had a birthday party at Jewel's House of Teas