Saturday, October 25, 2008

Much more than normal.

I am opening up much more than I ever normally would. Sharing things that I would have kept very private, but I realize that my family needs all possible prayers and good thoughts. We, and I mean me, need all the strength you can send.
I will greatly appreciate all of your kind comments but I may not be able to answer them. This is an extremely difficult time for me and some days I can reply and give updates and other days I can't see to say or type the damnable words.

Wednesday, October 22, at 4:00pm John and I took Alex to an inpatient facility.

He had be on a downward spiral for the past 2-3 weeks. The final straw seem to be when my parents left to spend
several weeks at their home in Florida. His depression became severe and he was unable to go to school. He is suffering anxiety attacks while at school. Several through out the day. His doctor sent a note to give him about 4 days off from school.This past Monday was supposed to be the day he went back to school and be able to stay the entire day. It did no go well. We went to a Dr. appt. Tuesday at 2:30 and the Dr. is very concerned and wanted Alex to be assessed at an inpatient facility. That was too much of a shock to us, we were not prepared to hear them say that he was going to be admitted.
So we came back to the facility today. We were more prepared and ready for what seemed inevitable.

At 8:15pm John and I walked away from our child. Hoping and praying that the strangers we were leaving our child with, will be good to him, make him feel safe and reassure him that we do love him very much. And that we are coming back for him.


  1. (((great big, huge hugs)))

    Be strong, I'll be thinking of you and yours.

  2. Oh, my God. I'm so sorry. I've been thinking about you and your family but didn't know exactly what to pray for, so I just prayed for strength for you and your family.

    I know how horrific it is to have to leave your child at a hospital. Pray for his doctors and all who will be in contact with Alex that they treat him with every possible kindness and that they have the wisdom to help him.

    I'm so sorry that your little guy is in such pain - that you are in such pain. Please know that there are people praying for you and thinking about you.

    Take lots of deep breaths.

  3. I am so sorry!!!! I know this isn't easy for you & your family - but its wonderful to see that you ARE taking steps to get him help! Sometimes it takes others to step in & let them do their jobs to make things better. I know it had to be hard for you to walk away from your baby. I will pray for you & your whole family & especially Alex!!! Everything will be OK in the end - even if it doesnt feel like it now.

    Remember God said he would never leave you nor forsake you - & he has nothing but plans to prosper you & to encourage you.....that's for Alex too!!!!

  4. My heart and prayers go out to you and your family right now. As hard as this is, keep believing that good things come out of some of the darkest times in our lives.

    Hugs to you all.

  5. wow, this is horrible. I will keep Alex - and you of course - in my thoughts.

    Being with serve depression and all myself, I know how hard it is. The most important step is to get help - any way possible.

    He's in good hands now and the docs will do everything possible to help.

    Will keep you all in my thoughts. Love & Hugs, Selina

  6. Oh honey. I have been thinking about you. I'm so sorry to hear that you have to be seperated from him. Do they allow you to send care packages? If so, spending some time collecting some of his favorite things and knitting special little items for him might help you pass the time, but also let him know that you are thinking of him and loving him and missing him. I'll continue to pray for you and your family.

  7. Will be keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers, Sonya. Big hug.

  8. oh, Sonya, sweetheart! I don't even know what to say. You are doing a very brave thing. My love and prayers to you, your husband, and your boy. I'm glad you are opening up. You need the love right now!

  9. Oh gosh, Sonya, I am so sorry to read this. Your whole family is in my thoughts. *sends a big virtual hug*

  10. Sonya, I'm so so sorry to hear about Alex. He must be a sensitive child. The world is a hard place to be. My brother had serious depression and had to be admitted when he was in high school. It was extremely hard on everyone in the family.

    Take care.

  11. This is a terrible thing to hear. I'm so sorry. I pray God gives you and your family the strength to make it through.

  12. Sonya, I did not realize what you were/are going through....we had to do this for one of our daughters, I felt like someone had ripped my heart out of my chest and threw it on the sidewalk when we left the first time!
    There WILL come a time when he understands this was done FOR him, not TO him. Holding you and yours up in prayer


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